I can see it…that sad look in his eyes, the tension in his hands that never seem to stop twitching. And no matter how I may try to smile and laugh and show him everything will be ok he still looks at me like I’ll break at any moment.
I guess I never acknowledged it before…I mean…who wouldn’t worry at a time like this? But today he gave me the biggest hug…one I’ve never felt before. Just total fear…or sadness? I’m not sure.
Guess I never REALLY realized how much of a daddy’s girl I am.
It’s not that much better on her end…
She’s just so strong ALL the time. How could i miss the tears behind closed doors. Guess its true what they say….your pain only hurts them a thousand times more.
She says I’m strong like her….stronger than her. But I don’t know how that’s possible. The whole universe could blow over and she’d still be standing. I doubt I could even come close.
At this point patience is wearing thin…I just want it to go away. I just want to see them smile again.
: : : All the times that I’ve cried. All that’s wasted, it’s all inside. And I lie here in bed…all alone…I can’t mend. But I feel tomorrow will be okay : : :
— Staind, Outside —